Felt Betrayed

~waaaaaa

long time never write blog ready cause too busy dealing wit work and friends.....

anyway here goes.

i ever wondered,why am i the one to be unlucky...

the word 'BESTIE' it exist to some people.but definitely not to me.

i grew out of the word for me that word is nothing anymore.Compared to what happen...

i want to tell the truth of my friends...

i have about 8 of us including me.

but i cant ignore what happen.... i cant hide it in me its killing me slowly....

hahahahahaha i always wanted to shout out really loud but i do not dare...i hate my emotions flowing out....

anyway first i felt betrayed when noah started dating abby ....but i learn to accept it cause its like they tell me everything then after they started dating its like they are pushing me away......

thats how i felt for them thats what bear felt as well ....

after 1 week i started to accept it haha i actually like them together...

after then i went for my national service and i call them to visit me they said okay but they never turn up.....only abby and chien yee ...i wanted to see chow ,sook yen and sim lu and bibi....as well and that idiot ks....

after i came back things got worst which i dont understand chow ......why?

would do the things you did why try to make me apart from abby? thats when i started hating him.

after few months ,i broke contact with noah...i wanted to see his reaction....but he does not seem to care hahaha wasted my effort.i just wanted noah to say i m sorry again......it made me feel better....

i miss him yet i hated him so so much.....

bibi i always like u as a friend but when u said u dont believe me i was mad really mad u ask me what do i feel if i m in bibi situation? i said i understand but the truth is i dont....why can u believe me?

if i would have been in his situation i would not have doubt him....cause he is like my brother .he teach me how to drive a car haha...

ks why are u so busybody? u said you would stand by my side. u said as leader u would have solve this....i dont want u to solve this i wanted u to TRUST ME!!!!!! and u were never a leader...

ks u told me not to tell bibi that i called her father to ask him cause it would hurt bibi...

i did not tell listening to ks...look what happen???

he then stand side with bibi said there was a proof againts me ?

i told him call sook yen father.... he used that term as i called her father and said i plan all this....

he post everything on facebook that all refered to me how would i feel?

i then ask u ppl how would u feel if u r me and nobody trust u ...and u r trying to fight for ur innocence ...but nobody trust u...

i felt betrayed and thats all...

abby is my friend